Tuesday, November 17, 2015

On a Journey to somewhere

My Journey will be starting soon and I would be lying if I said I wasn't somewhat afraid.  Not afraid of traveling alone or afraid something bad will happen to me but afraid that the thing I don't know I am looking for won't find me.

In a few short weeks I will be heading over to Lima, Peru to spend about 2 months and then hitting up Rio, Brazil for a few weeks before finding my way back home only to jump on a cruise ship to Mexico for a few days.  This will be the longest I have been away from home and will be the first time I am spending this much time alone.  I will be surrounded by people who speak a language unfamiliar to me as the most Spanish I retained was how to count to 10.  Of course I know even less Portuguese so the language barrier may be a challenge.  I love to talk so it will be frustrating to learn a new way to communicate.

People that know I am leaving for a few months always ask me why.  I seem to be surprised each time and have yet to come up with an answer.  I have always wanted to travel the world and although I have been to a great many tropical places in my day I have never stayed somewhere long enough to start to feel like its home.  Being an entrepreneur for Degrees of Success I can work from anywhere in the world.  I guess part of me is leaving so I can tell myself I can.  Somewhere inside me I am also hoping to find something.  I cant put  my finger on what that something is or if it will benefit my life in some way but deep down I think it will.  Clarity maybe or a oneness with myself or some type of closure to the old chapters in my life.  I don't really know.

I think some people think I am going through a midlife crisis but I don't think that's it.  I may not have everything I ever dreamed of but I am getting closer to it every day.  I am still single which I guess at the young age of 38 would seem too old to still be going it alone but most days it doesn't bother me.  I say most because some days it does.  It's not easy to do everything alone and sometimes I wish I had a travel buddy but this journey of mine only requires a Ticket for Just One.

Sometimes I think we have to step outside our comfort zones to become the people we are destined to be.  I guess ultimately I am hoping I will become her somewhere in between Lima and Rio.  I will update you with pictures and videos and stories of my travels.  This is the beginning of my journey to somewhere.